Lately

I know I am MIA for months at a time but as the previous post explains- it's for my sanity. So many people have turned to their blogs as a way to make money, which is fine, but it shouldn't be the sole purpose.

I have 10 days left of this semester (yay!!) I stopped babysitting so I would have more time for school (aka watching tv on my days off.) I work about 4 hours a week in the women's center at the local hospital. I have always worked l&d, nicu, peds, picu, and postpartum so why let infertility stop that! I recently had an amazing job offer to work in the IV pharmacy at my old hospital but the hours wouldn't have worked with next semester. I also was asked to be a Chemistry 2 tutor for two lab classes at my university, so I will be doing that instead.

Classes are going great. I'm really kicking ass in Chemistry and I love the SHIT out of it. My favorite professor has been slipping me random job info about careers with a doctorate in Chemistry instead of a pharmacy doctorate. I would love it but I don't know how realistic that is.

Infertility still lurks in the back of my mind but I'm feeling better than I have in a long time. People still get on my nerves when they bitch about their pregnancy (even if they feel that they are due that right.) Or when I see a 15 year old with twins. It probably helps that I go to school with younger kids that are still scared of getting pregnant. And there will hardly be any parents (at least moms) in my doctorate program because no mom in their right mind would sign on for that.

Well that's all I have for now-- see you in a month or two.

If you miss me, you can always follow me on twitter!

Winter Babies

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB125356566517528879.html

READ THIS

http://parenting.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/09/10/life-after-infertility-treatments-fail/

Taking a break from blogging.

My blog used to be a place where I could write and get wonderful support about infertility and TTC. A lot of people don't understand my "choice" to not continue some kind of treatment. First of all, it's not my choice, it's "God's" choice or whoever you want to blame for something like that. Yes, we could adopt. And who knows maybe in 10 years we will. But that will only cause me to relive my pain from infertility and the pain of being in limbo again. Yes of course I want children but I don't want to ruin my life to get there.

My husband's college friend came this past weekend. He lives in DC and I've never met him before. He commented on my personality and my mood as always being happy and positive. This is who I am now. I remove myself from situations that make me uncomfortable and I'm better than ever. I don't really give a fuck what you think about that either.

I check back in once on blogger once and awhile. I can't BELIEVE how some people have gone completely off the deep end around here!

BTW. School is good. I'm totally rocking this semester. My education will be my baby apparently.

Abortion

How does an infertile deal with a "friend" having an abortion?  This is the 2nd "friend" since my miscarriage that has had one.  Please help me make sense of this.

Happy (late) Blogoversary. Poor little bloggy.

Ohhh goodness!  Everyone has been celebrating their blogoversaries so I checked on mine because I figured it would be coming up... AND I MISSED IT!  

We will be celebrating with  a giveaway (you know how I love those.)  But I don't quite have an idea of what I want to giveaway.  I think I will be turning to Etsy for this one.  Stay tuned.

Sometimes it's fun to disappear.

Update since last time: I'm no longer looking for a job because the lady I am babysitting for still needs me, at least until December. And as long as I can get like 4-6 hours a week I will be fine. It's my last week at my temporary job at the trans.plant center. Last week was suppose to be my last week but the girl I'm training is the dumbest person I've ever met. And she's annoying. Chews-with-her-mouth-open is also a mom, an annoying one. She blames EVERYTHING on being a mom and tells me about how she is a mom close to 15 times a day. No lie. She blames her dumbassness on "mommy brain" and tells me she is always sooo tired and can carry 1000 things because she's a mom and blah blah blah. She lives with her parents, has a 3 year old, has a fiance (not the daddy, of course) and just finished some career tech school that my tax money paid for. Don't get me wrong, these systems are put into place for people that need them. But when you have a job and still get free daycare, foodstamps, wic, AND soonercare (medicaid for women and children) it's not fair. I've got no respect for someone like that. Mind you, she also has a nicer cell phone, cuter clothes, accessories coming out the ass. Why don't you stop buying shit and pay for that kid you have?!

Ahh so that turned into a rant but oh god. I have trained a ton of people in my professional lifetime but never has my patience run out... until her.

Anyway, School starts soon!! wwoooooot wooooot. I'm excited. I was glad to take the summer off but I'm ready to start studying again. Next week I plan to get my office in decent shape for the semester. I also need to buy books but it's close to $1400 just for this semester.

Rambling.